“Cautious”, who got in touch with us recently, has been heavily involved with SCOAN for several years. He says that he has benefited hugely from some of TB Joshua’s teaching. He also insists that some people at SCOAN are true believers who do not equate TB Joshua with Christ. However, he has left SCOAN because of a growing number of things that made him question what happened there. In the next three posts, he explains what made him leave.
This is my first comment ever. I did not want to comment at first cause no matter what anyone says, someone will just again have something else to say to try to contradict the other one or try to proof the other one wrong. Honestly, pointless in my opinion. Although I don’t rule out that here and there, there might be certain valid points for people to consider. However, I recently read such disturbing and offensive material on a blog written by SCOAN workers, that I just could not help myself but to write this post.
First of all, I am neither for Scoan, nor against Scoan. I am for Jesus and Jesus alone. I believe in loving people around me with the love of Jesus Christ, regardless of colour or race. The family of Christ all belong to the same body and are those that are obedient to Jesus Christ, who serve Christ and whether you are part of this family does not depend on whether you are part of the ministry of Scoan or any other God fearing ministry. What makes us family is our faith in Christ and besides faith in Christ and obedience to Christ there are no other criteria to consider.
I have spent many years in the SCOAN ministry and I have learned many valuable things while being in the ministry. I honestly believe that there are God fearing people attending SCOAN and that they are searching for a living relationship with Jesus Christ and not with TB Joshua. However I am sure there are people in SCOAN that does perceive TB Joshua to be equal to God, to be infallible and this might even be subconsciously taking place without them even realising it. (What I mean is when you listen to their conversation it might e.g. just be about TB Joshua all the time and never about Jesus Christ at all). Yes, of course just like Paul from the Bible, a great man of God, we would and probably should admire him for the example he is setting and acknowledge that, but we need to be so careful that we don’t make that person out to be God as this person is just used by God and within himself is powerless, just a man, used by God.
I myself found that I had to be very careful of it and I made sure that in my conversations with visitors etc. I would always mention the name of Jesus Christ in my conversations and stay away from mentioning the name TB Joshua too often, if even at all.
Now while I was part of the ministry I picked up that certain people were treating TB Joshua as if though he is God, but I realised that you would always find that happening e.g in Acts 14. “When the crowds saw what Paul had done, they thought that Paul and Barnabas were gods. They cried out, “The gods have come down to us in human form.” They called Barnabas ‘Zeus’ and Paul they called ‘Hermes.’ They intended to offer sacrifice to them. The apostles Barnabas and Paul tore their garments when they heard this and rushed out into the crowd, shouting, “Why are you doing this? We are of the same nature as you, human beings. We proclaim to you good news that you should turn from these false idols to the living God.”
This is not right, but also does not mean that TB Joshua is necessarily to blame for people behaving this way, although some might reason that he might not be doing enough to keep people from behaving in such a fashion, which is probably debatable.
So far so good. I must say when in Lagos however I found it quite strange that he would sell his own photo frame to people for quite a lot of money and in return he would administer the anointing water personally to those that bought the photo frame after the service. I was thinking afterwards, imagine any other pastor was selling his own photo frame to the public, wouldn’t we think it to be strange? Is this not idolatry encouraging people to hang your photo frame in their houses, in their businesses etc? This is just a question and my way of thinking about it really – I am not saying that I believe it is a fact that TB Joshua is guilty of idolising himself, but I am just saying that this is something I personally found to be strange and not 100% convinced that I feel comfortable with the idea. I know people commented and said it is all to do with the scripture and not his picture as such, but why the picture then in the first place? Surely you could have something else on the background, like the ocean perhaps etc., if it is only the scripture that matters. I am not going to make too big a deal out of it, I am just trying to lift out the positives and negatives as I perceive it knowing well that there is no perfect church out there anyways.
I was extremely committed to SCOAN and took my relationship with Jesus Christ very seriously when I was there – not that I am not now. In SCOAN there was always room for correction, but if such correction were to take place it should however always be in love. Haha well if this was always done in love is debatable, but once again you can’t fully control it because we are dealing with people and we could not expect everyone to understand it from the very start – it takes time if you know what I mean. I personally felt that I have learnt a lot from the correction that took place as sometimes people don’t always realise that what they are doing is not for the glory of God (I am talking about small things here, not obvious stuff). Only when people point it out to you, can you do something about it and change it for the glory of God.
So if everything or most things sounds so positive, what made me to leave the ministry after serving in it for so many years?
1) The allegations: they can’t be verified, but they can’t be ruled out either.
I realised over the years that loads of allegations were made against TB Joshua, but it did not bother me too much. This is because I believed that everything that is of Jesus Christ will receive attack, and if it doesn’t it means that satan and his kingdom is not really concerned about that ministry as it is not really making an impact on the kingdom of darkness.
I pretty much believed it when TB Joshua implied that he does not have to answer to his accusers, cause God is fighting for Him, so why waste your time on your accusers, after all satan is the accuser and it is not worth wasting your time defending false accusations. I hope I am making sense here.
However, I became very familiar now with the people involved in SCOAN in many different countries as a result of me being in the ministry for such a long time. I have come to know the very character of many of these people committed to SCOAN, including highly trusted disciples – highly trusted by TB Joshua. As many of these disciples has now become personal friends of mine I became the more and more aware of when they are being send on assignments and the more people I got to know internationally the more I became aware of when someone has gone missing. What I mean by going missing is e.g. people that were e.g. T.B Joshua’s personal assistant at the Australia for Christ Crusade, The Korea for Christ Crusade etc. that just basically disappeared off the scene and no one would tell you where they are or what happened to them or will say things like they were sent on an assignment or something like that, which I would then find afterwards not to be true.
I am now not talking about an isolated couple of people. I am talking about quite a number of people that disappeared off the scene – that were in very prominent positions at SCOAN. I made it my mission to find out what happened to these people and why they would leave the ministry after being in such prominent positions at SCOAN. I spoke to these people that left in person, I did not hear it from any second hand source and the reasons they gave me did not match the reasons that were given to me at the time by some other disciples.
I started to realise that here are some funny business going on – some kind of secretive business. Now you won’t pick it up that easily – only if you become very familiar with the ministry and the people involved that there are certain information that’s being kept from you e.g. when you start asking the reasons why so and so has left the ministry.
When disciples which I knew had a very close relationship with Jesus Christ and were role models in every sense of the word started to make allegations strikingly similar to previous allegations, I was forced to start asking questions.
Now am I saying that these allegations are true? No, how can I, I was not there. Do I believe in the possibility that it might be true? Yes, you can’t rule it out.
Why can’t I rule it out? Once again like I said before, this is not based on the allegations made by an isolated couple of people, but the whole picture now coming together.
You have to consider this question: Why would two successful ministers of a growing church and a committed team of workers sacrifice 10 years of their lives serving in the ministry, being in a very prominent position and seeming privileged position sacrifice it all? Why? No-one in their right mind would do that. Having a little baby girl to provide for and still making the decision to abandon it all. No money for accommodation, no money for food, no job and no qualifications to get a proper job.
Am I now making the assumption that I believe the allegations? Well, like I said before, No, because what if I am wrong. Am I considering it a possibility to be true? Yes, definitely.
“Cautious” will give further reasons for leaving SCOAN in the next post, published shortly.