This is the second part of a testimony from ‘Cautious’, in which he gives the reasons for his difficult decision to leave SCOAN after years of involvement.
2) Treatment of ex-disciples
Another reason for me leaving was the way that ex-disciples were treated. For those that don’t know – one of these former disciples that used to pastor the church were completely cut off from his family when he made the decision to leave SCOAN as his whole family is involved in SCOAN and don’t want anything to do with him or his wife whatsoever – we are talking blood family here.
Now my question is as a dad or a mother, how can you reject your own son? I mean, you don’t always have to agree on all things, but to cut off your own flesh and blood? Does the Bible not tell us to give even your enemy something to eat, to give them something to drink? If SCOAN then believes that they are now in the darkness what are they doing to bring them back to the light? Did Christ ever reject anyone? If my son decides to worship satan, am I going to reject him or am I going to show him the love of Jesus Christ? If I choose to reject him, how would that help the situation?
This is not meant to judge at all, no one is perfect and I admit that I am far from perfect and if I am not correct in my reasoning then please feel free to correct me. I am honestly open for correction, but I need to say that this was one of the biggest reasons I chose to leave the ministry cause for me this is not Christ-like behaviour and once again not judging, just saying that this is not how I believe Christ would have handled the situation.
3) No accountability!
After all of these allegations, you would expect that an independent investigation would have been welcomed. If there is nothing to hide then why not welcome the investigation and get it done and over with? This will stop all speculation and associated accusations/nonsense (if considered as nonsense ) dead in its tracks.
4) Cutting myself off from friends
I was told to cut myself off from those that were not going to SCOAN anymore as they would influence me in a negative way. We are talking about people I have known for years – good friends. The bottom line here is that those that left SCOAN left because of Christ and some that decided to stay probably stayed because of Christ. What I mean is that many left because they were not satisfied with how the situation was handled, the fact that there is no accountability and that these issues has not been dealt with which creates great suspicion that there might be truth in these allegations.
Others have stayed because they might have believed that the allegations are not true or maybe because they feel that their relationship with Christ is only between them and God and that in the end they will be accountable to God for their deeds regardless where they choose to worship and perhaps they would feel that God has not instructed them to go anywhere else. That’s what I meant by everyone made their decisions because of Christ anyways – or at least that’s what I think.
5) Salvation through SCOAN alone
At number 1 I mentioned what I believe the requirements are for being part of the body of Christ. That is faith in Christ and obedience to Christ. Being in relationship with Christ – not got anything to do with belonging to a specific group, church or organisation. I got the impression, and I am not the only one, that either you are for SCOAN or against SCOAN, either you are in or you are out. A previous member that decided to leave the church was send a letter that stated that if she ever decides to come back to SCOAN to reclaim her salvation she would not be scorned, but welcomed. Salvation? Huh? Who is this person to decide who is saved and not?
For clarity this was send by some of the workers from SCOAN after many of the original workers has left. I will come up for SCOAN here as I believe that these couple of loose cannons does not represent the general views of SCOAN or I honestly hope not. It is crazy comments like these that also helped me in my decision to close the chapter and to move on. I mean I might be interpreting it incorrectly but the way I interpret this business of reclaiming your salvation when returning to SCOAN it almost now sounds as if SCOAN is the only place where you can find your salvation.
If I would ever send comments like that to anyone while being a worker at SCOAN, I would have been corrected like big time in a workers meeting and I would have not been able to serve as a worker for an extensive period of time. Well, these workers that send this letter just continued to serve as if they never send it in the first place. I was surprised that the new leadership of SCOAN tolerated this kind of behaviour as I thought it to be incredibly damaging for SCOAN’S reputation.
6) An independent mind? Not at SCOAN.
At SCOAN you are taught that you should have an independent mind. Well, to me it became quite obvious that in fact they don’t have an independent mind as far as I can see. Once again correct me if I am wrong. Everything is controlled by TB Joshua because he is the infallible man of God and when he commands it is as if it is the Holy Spirit himself that instructs. Disciples end up just following the instructions of TB Joshua most of the time and don’t have any freedom to think independently – to have an independent mind.
The final part of this testimony will be published shortly.